Do you ever catch yourself thinking, "oh I'm saving that for (fill in the blank)?"
I do this with clothes, food and relationships. Somewhere along the way I started to believe that I wasn't deserving of good things and that some day I will eat that food, wear that dress or put myself out there again.
I hoard my "good" food and nourish myself with nothing of substance, because in my head, I don't believe that I am deserving of good things.
I recently bought some shrimp and salmon from Sams Club and I was complaining in my head that I didn't have food, even though I had an overflowing amount of food in my freezer, available to me right now. For some reason I categorized that food as something I'd eat in the future.
Why do we do that? It's like we've been conditioned to save that dress, save that food for some special event THAT. IS NEVER. GOING. TO. COME.
I want to frolic in the clothes I buy. I want to eat food without feeling guilty that I'm indulging in something that was meant for a special dinner.
Entitlement and realizing that you are deserving of good things are very different. I don't believe we are entitled to anything. But when you have access to the water and you don't drink it, that's just scarcity.
This mindset of scarcity needs to go. It's a mindset that can't live in the same breath as my beliefs about God.
I think we also do this with our relationship to God. We complain about anxiety, anger or unforgivingness and the author of life is waiting for you to come to Him. He is waiting for you to sit down and open the Bible and have a convo. We have full access to the water yet we're not drinking it.
Tonight I made shrimp and rice and I ate it and thanked God for the chains he breaks and the way He provides. It's in the small moments of making dinner that He reminds us that we are enough and that we are deserving of good things.
By now I'm sure you know that I love a pink moment, so these pants were a must have for my wardrobe. I will be honest though, I was pretty hesitant when I first bought them, but now I'm obsessed and wear them far too often. My coat is very light weight and I can wear it with pretty much everything since it's basically a neutral and I believe I bought it at Nordstrom Rack a few seasons ago. My top is a button up linen thrift find. I love finding basics at thrift stores, especially ones that are vintage. I gravitate towards a block heel so these black mules were definitely a wardrobe need and I hunted them down at Nordstrom Rack last year. This black Brixton cap I've had a few years now and it's still one of my favorites to rock. My LB pin is from the Garden, my local church I attend in Long Beach.
Similar Madewell jeans: Here
Brixton Cap: Here
I haven't been thrifting yet this year, so there's nothing yet to report about my challenge. That also means I haven't bought any clothes this month, which is a great reminder that I have all that I need.
Okay friends, I hope that you are inspired in some capacity.
Carry on with your lovely lives and and until next time.
Jill is an Interior Designer with a passion for fashion, photography and beautiful, functional spaces.